When I was 4ish, I dreamed about where I had lived before I was born. A sylvan place, open and sunny – warm and soft and green. You were there, and we were planning something.
That we are together is a fact, not just something to remember. I say this as much for myself as for you.
In the dream, I lay on the grass, in open shade beneath a massive apple tree. The hard tree roots pressed into my back, but I felt they knew me so I didn’t mind. I looked up at the blue sky through the leaves, and wondered.
You must have wondered, too – because I think that was when we began.
Happy birthday, darling. I love since before beginning, and I am sure there will be no end.