“Pointing directly at your own heart, you find Buddha.”
Bodhidharma quote, courtesy of Pema C., hands courtesy of Barb D. and Marv B., shamelessness courtesy of me.
Has this ever happened to you? You find something you think is a heart, but when you get it home and take a closer look, you’re not so sure anymore. It isn’t as much of a heart as you thought at first. You wonder if you were imagining things. But then you decide it is a heart, after all. No hearts are perfect. And then you love it all the more.
Patron Saint of the Perforated Paper,
Keep my wooden heart in your tender gaze.
Grasp the Lamb and palm frond –
weapons meant to bring us heaven on earth.
Cut steel shields your radiant brow with
glory rusted from devotion long since exhausted.
And my prayers are all in silk laid side by side
by hand.
Today, le mot juste goes to our friend Nick, who arrived at the cafe in party spirits, announcing, “It’s as if there’s been a truce!” Just so. A snow day is like Christmas, only better. The rules are etched indelibly into our hearts, and even though we may be adults at work when drifts wave like white flags along the trenches of streets and sidewalks, we are loathe to break them. The day’s mission is understood: fun, pleasure, mischief. Like Scrooge we discover it is not too late; through no merit of ours, we have been given a second chance. Perhaps Secret Snow Santa has plowed our sidewalk or, greatest of pleasures, our very own shoulders lean in to help in some way so ordinary and unremarkable, we really don’t deserve a reward, but there it is anyway, just for us: a cup steaming hotter than our breath, and sweet. Here is the power of snow: to burn as it makes you shiver; to make being the target fun; to burst, on contact, into powder and laughter; to level the playing field, for on this day, children rule. And later, as the snow blushes in afternoon sunlight, and the shadows point farther and farther across the yard, if your fenders are fine, and bones unbroken, there will be no regrets. Not one.
Perhaps you are not aware that it is possible to watch a show on television where two brothers cruise the United States in a black 1967 Impala, killing demons and taking their emotions seriously in the way only people under 30 can. But there is such a show, and I am pretty sure the Brothers Winchester (for that is Sam and Dean’s un-ironic surname) would agree that this doll case in Appleton, Wisconsin is one of the creepiest things they have every seen.
Winter is all about tree trunks here – veins reaching out of the earth, gulping life from the sky every instant the pounding heartbeat of xylem and phloem ebbs and flows, with a panic of leaves securing a great, greedy supply for the season’s larder. And all this for what? To stand in wait of resuscitation based not on instinct of muscle, but temperature and time. Summer’s sap green thickets appear one dimensional blurring past the traveling window, but in winter the depths of the groves that spread unattended between fields and ponds and beige vinyl homes, is revealed. Brazenly, they bare their potency in countless webs of twigs and branches and rising arteries, whose power together to move toward what is wanted, what is needed, is of one mind.