As it turns out, still crying quite a bit. But also, tulips and the sky-blue-willow world.
I say this not to comfort you, but because I needed to live without these tears for a very long time – so I want to reassure myself that there is no reason to overcome them. And my world is not better without them.
I added a song to the playlist. We can just let John Hiatt take care of the rest.
what is beautiful remains 
Play cheerful music, sweet Brenna. And I LOVE the tulips. If winter comes, can spring be far behind?
Play cheerful music only, dear Brenna. And love the tulips (two lips) – “if winter comes, can spring be far behind?” Your tears will be water for the flowers that bloom in the spring and you will smile again.