They Might Be Leaves

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They might be leaves
They might be birds
They might be memories
Whatever they might be
I love to watch their drift

and then
the sun moves and
They fly away.

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Listen Twice, Talk Once

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Maybe it counts as not heeding my own pithy advice, but I couldn’t resist listening in color and in black and white.

Maybe that’s more than a coincidence.  Maybe it’s even a metaphor.

Maybe I’ll just shut up now.

(There.  That’s better.)

How Do I Work This?

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“Any support we get from persons of flesh and blood is like Monopoly money; it’s not legal tender in that sphere where we have to do our work. In fact, the more energy we spend stoking up on support from colleagues and loved ones, the weaker we become and the less capable of handling our business.”  – Steven Pressfield, The War of Art

Making images started out for me as an almost exclusively solitary enterprise, yet almost as soon as I had made a few photos that felt “real” to me, I wanted to know if other people also could see something in them.  Since my main goal in looking at the world through a camera is to leave behind some trace of my actual self, my wish for confirmation from others felt urgent.  Fraught, you might even say.  No matter how opaque, or amateurish, or ham-fisted my picture world appears, it remains the most real thing I am able to create.

I imagined encouragement or admiration, or response from others would guide me further along my road.  I wanted to enjoy the pure pleasure of being seen as myself, through the lens I have turned on my own world.  But pleasure and I are not such easy companions, and now I find that the more people I show these images to, the less seen I feel.  As a personal matter, this isn’t such a tragedy, but as a matter of self-consciousness when I picked up my camera, it is at least as inhibiting as loneliness or disappointment – possibly even more so.  Whatever it was I wanted from an audience, I don’t think I can get – at least not that way.  Or to say it differently, I already have what I needed from the work itself.  My personal need to be seen is a different problem altogether.

This realization complicates things.  I may need to get back in the cocoon for awhile, spinning out pictures just for myself, repeating things, going over old territory – because my new eyes just aren’t ready yet.

Why I Waited to Jump In

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“Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. “Pooh?” he whispered.
“Yes, Piglet?”
“Nothing,” said Piglet, taking Pooh’s hand. “I just wanted to be sure of you.”

Use Your Inside Light

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I like it when the light seems to come from within.

Upon Reflection

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Mirror, mirror
on my heart…
How can I tell
these two apart?

Skip, skip, skip to my lu
or run away from home,
tendersome
dearly
embarking
treading in depths
unknown.

Nothing Less

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When I open my eyes,
am I praying?
When I focus my words,
am I seeing?
When I listen within,
am I opening?
What do I have
to lose?

Where It Is

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I came to a place in the road
with trees in the moon

and without a glance backward,
I hung my heart in the trees.

Macro-monial Bliss

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I got a new lens today.  It is my first one since buying my special camera.

I knew it was “the one” at first sight.

This lens laughs at all my puns.  We are very happy together!

PS: we are not registered anywhere, but cash gifts are welcome.  We are saving to have a LensBaby.

Heres and Theres

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In the twinkling of an eye, my habit of lunchtime blogging has vanished, replaced by scurrying to dress giant Barbie dolls on photo sets exiled far, far away from the reach of wi-fi.  I’m afraid this picture isn’t much of a reward for your visit, since the re-workings at work have drained my tank so thoroughly, there’s no gas left to spark my creativity and photography on the weekends.

This ball of thread is just as I found it, imperfect rewindings overlapping the pristine criss-crosses formed the day it was made, telling the story of a project begun and unfinished, perhaps.    Its core remains unexposed.  A spool like this is full of contradictions – you only find the emptiness at the center core by using it up completely, reconstituting the perfection of machines into the imperfectable and priceless work of hands.

And if that isn’t a metaphor for the life I live –  popping dozens of tops and pants and boxer shorts onto mannequins, luring innocent human beings into imagining themselves somehow improved by wearing the output of factories wherein our brothers and sisters toil – then I don’t understand what a metaphor is.